Time Flies

Well, time flies when you're having fun! Or...when you're working alllllll the time. Or...most of the time haha. I was supposed to go to Delta for work today but because I didn't have many appointments I rescheduled them and was supposed to use today for booking for next week. But it ended up just being a me day. I really meant to get some work done but the only thing I got done was watching some training videos. Instead, I went to the temple! Its been far too long and I've missed it! Then as I said I watched some training videos...boring but helpful. After that I got some groceries, made sloppy joes and watched BYUs homecoming football game! Thank goodness we won! We've sucked this year... The game should have been better than it was but regardless, we won. After that I went to get tickets to see Toy Story 3 in the dollar theater with some friends and since traffic was so bad I just walked around Shopko until it was time to meet up with my friends at the theater. Man I love that movie! And now here we are! I feel bad about not getting any work done but I really needed to go to the temple and it was nice to just relax for once! I think I'd probably have a breakdown otherwise. Well, I'm gonna head to bed soon -- church is so early! Night

Oh, Monday

Aren't Mondays great? Not really haha. They aren't my favorite. But today wasn't too bad. I woke up, got some things organized. Then I decided to go to the doctor after all since my head has still been hurting on and off since the concert (on the 25th) when I got elbowed in the head. He's pretty sure I got a mild concussion. Unfortunately there isn't really anything to do other than take it easy. It takes usually a month to heal. So the next few weeks will be interesting. Then I went to work. I learned a lot and I'm really excited to start meeting with policy owners! They are way easier to book on the phone and it should be easier to make money too. I booked a lot more appointments than normal so that's good. Tomorrow is going to be a crazy day for sure! Oh yeah! I forgot to mention how the wedding went. First off, I really like Colorado! I didn't get to see much of it but I liked what I saw and I think I could live there :) The wedding went well and Emily looked beautiful! It was really nice to get to see family again -- especially the cousins I haven't seen in FOREVER! But, now I'm gonna probably get ready for bed... Night!

Today

Today has been pretty uneventful. I woke up, packed, drove to Tooele, sat around, ate dinner, and now I'm watching Bones. Then I'll watch The Office, and then we'll head to pick up my little sister and make our way to Colorado Springs, CO. I should be sleeping so I can drive a while but I can't...haha. It'll be interesting to see how it works out. Anyway...I'm gonna get back to watching Bones :) Short post, I know, but its all I have to say for now.

Live and Learn

Lately I've done a lot of thinking about a lot of different things. Thinking is a typical thing for me. I generally over think everything and my brain is always going crazy. But lately I guess its been more pondering. I'm trying to figure out exactly what I want in life, and where I want to be. There are some things I know I want that I've always wanted and there are some things that are still unclear. I feel like this point in my life is full of change and decision making. I've also been thinking about experiences in my past and what I've learned and how I've grown since then. ...I feel like I'm just rambling and nothing is making sense. I'm not sure what I'm trying to say. Maybe just that I feel really good about some areas of my life but others I'm still lost and confused.

A friend was talking to me today about my ex and even though I've realized he couldn't have cared as much about me as it seemed (since he moved onto another girl right away) and that he's actually a huge jerk and other things I wont say...I realized that I still care about him, and I'm still hurting. Its been 4 months and I'm doing so much better but it still hurts at times. But I learned a lot about myself, and that's what matters. The past is the past. I need to keep looking forward and stop looking back. Yes, I've been hurt a TON but I can't let that stop me from progressing. But, I need to make sure that I'm ready before I jump into anything. My problem is I have a big heart and when I like someone I go for it. I guess that isn't a problem, but the issue is I move to fast. I've realized I need to take more time. So that's what I'm working on from now on -- no matter how crazy I am about someone.

Anyway...that's a lot of rambling but I needed to put it somewhere. I've gotta do some studying for work so I can nail my presentations today!

Awful

I'm awful at blogging...I've said this many times. I'm also terrible at writing in my journal. I'll be good for a week or two and then stop. But I need to be better! I need to at least blog, or write in my journal...or both! So I'm going to work on the blog for now. I'm crazy busy with my new job but it doesn't take that long to type an update right? My new job: I'm an agent for a life insurance company so I work crazy hours and my only day off is Sunday! It can be stressful but I like not being tied down to an office and being pretty much my own boss. And when you sell its GOOD money :)

I'm going to Colorado this weekend for my cousin's wedding! I haven't seen her since I was maybe 10? I honestly have no idea...but I'm really excited! Also I've never been to CO so that'll be fun! Tonight I may go stargazing with a friend...not sure what we're gonna do yet but we'll figure it out and it'll be fun regardless! Anyway...I have tons to do today for work so I better get on it!

Sweet Dream

Last night I had an awesome dream so I'm blogging about it so I will always remember it (even though I usually always remember awesome dreams). I don't remember all of the details but this is what I do remember:

I was with some friends sitting on these benches like at a church and this spider crawled on me and I flicked it away. I was sitting next to this really cute guy and we ended up hitting it off. Time goes on and we are at this place again and this guy and I were still together and we were sitting on the benches again and a spider crawled up my leg again, I flicked it off, then another one came, I flicked it off, then another one came, I flicked it off and jumped up realizing I was sitting on a spider nesting place or what not so we all hurried out of the place. Time goes on again and I see this guy kiss another girl so then I later confront him and slap him and he says it was his cousin (or some relative, I can't remember). Then I say to him something like "no, this has happened to me too many times, I'm not going to get hurt again" with the intention of ending things. But then in front of everyone he professes his love for me in this incredibly romantic speech and people were clapping and we kissed :)

I'm pretty sure my heart was pounding in real life as I was dreaming and then when I woke up I felt this really strong connection for this guy in my dream...if only I knew who it was...

2010 So Far

2010 so far has been pretty good. Target loves me so they kept me on after the holidays and I'm already a trainer and I haven't even been there a full 3 months yet! My hours are always changing but hopefully I can somehow stay at full time so I can get benefits instead of working 40 hours one week and 25 the next! I am reconsidering going into the Air Force to be an officer. I feel more comfortable about it this time around and I think I might talk to a recruiter tomorrow. I decided I feel kind of stuck in my life right now...I have a Bachelor's and I work at Target making $8/hr...and I think the Air Force could be a good way to get me unstuck. I already have a nonexistent love life so joining wont affect that! Haha :) Anyway, I just thought I would post something since its been a while, as usual...